It’s About Time!
Hey! Guess what I didn’t count on. Christmas was really busy and really exhausting! Fact about me: I’m usually pretty self-aware with one little exception. I consistently, and generally with great consequence, misjudge time in all its forms. I misjudge how long it will take to get ready. I misjudge how long it will last. I misjudge exactly how the weeks, the days, the hours and the minutes will flow. Me and time? Not really in synch.
True story. I am late a lot. So late, so often that when I served this great country as an Airman in the U.S. Air Force, I was actually Article 15′d (look it up, it sucks) and given a LOT of extra duty because of my inability to get to work on time. Now, once I was there, I wouldn’t leave. 15 hour days were nothing for me. So I found it stratospherically unfair that I should get punished just for showing at 8:15. Or 9:00. Or WHAT THE HELL even 10:00 in the morning when everyone knew well and good that I would be the last to leave! My commander did not see it my way. I’m always a little amused now when people see I’m a veteran and assume that I know how to show up on time.
But I do understand that this is a major vice and shortcoming and so I try to compensate by building in some accountability for myself. I say to my husband, “I will do this by 4:00 on Friday!” I say to my best friend, “I will be there 15 minutes early!” See, if I say I’m going to show up on time there is no pressure in that. No, no! No, I will be so good and show you this time by being early! I will post a specific date that I am going to do a giveaway on my blog so as to make sure I follow through!!
This friends, THIS is where the complete inability to see the truth comes face to face with reality. My little tricks, the little games I play with myself? They never work. And why don’t they work?
Because my Christmas was busier than your Christmas! Because it’s a conspiracy! Because I’m a loathsome failure! I have no idea. I wish I did. If I did, I’d change it. Because I’m self-aware like that.
I do have a winner of the Children’s Art Project 2012 Calendar with Rachael’s picture on the front though! Congratulations Lori! Please email me at email@example.com with your address so I can send it right off to you! Like the second I get it! I’m going to get off the computer and put in in an envelope this very second! Or when the post office opens. WHATEVER! You’ll get it by 2012!
I hope everyone had a Blessed Christmas! Despite the busy schedule leading up to it and showing up to my parents’ house 45 minutes late and the movie with friends 5 minutes late it was a wonderful celebration of a priceless and matchless gift that gives my family great hope.
From my family to yours, may 2012 bring you many blessings!